real BDSM

Okay I have indeed read Anne Rice’s erotica and All three of the E.L.James Fifty Shades Trilogy books. They were very good.

It kinda makes me upset and mad when these women after reading this book think it’s a game or they want it in real life. When they probably don’t know or understand these terms in real life.

I know because I have been in a REAL BDSM relationship. Unfortunately it was a bad relationship. I was abused emotionally, physically, and sexually.

When I say physically I mean actual real physical hurt. I was kicked in my ribs over and over, my head bashed into a wall, slapped in the face when I had crying spells, etc.

The Physical pleasure of flogging and such I enjoyed and my body escaped into a wonderful paradise. Which is where people think that’s the physical abuse and no it’s not.

BDSM : Bondage Discipline Sadism Masochism

When you are a SUB you do have more say about what happens to you and you can say YES and NO more in the relationship. Most SUBS are just doing it for kicks or would rather not be fully committed.

when you are SLAVE you don’t have as many rights or say in the relationship. YOU are putting yourself FULLY into your partner’s hands. Life, Body, Soul, and Mind.

I was 22 when I really got into BDSM. I met someone on AOL and he was a pretty nice guy for awhile. Well he would only come over once every 3 months. It was a lot emotional toil for me. I got out of it and didn’t see or anything from that person again.

I was hooked and my body wanted more I wanted more. So I went on the site Collarme.com and there I put my profile on and I put myself as SLAVE because that’s what I wanted. I met a man online we chatted on the phone and hit it off. I lived on the east coast and he lived in the west coast.

Things got serious and we did a contract (which in BDSM relationships there is a contract in which if something goes the way you did not want you can there fore leave the relationship in tact.

I moved from the east coast to the west coast. We met and yes I went right to living with this man immediately. (I know sounds dumb and stupid I was 22 lol).

Things went well for maybe a month then his mentor said you need to have two girls in your house. Well in our contract I had put no forced bisexuality.

That changed completely. When I didn’t do something he said do I would be punished. At points he would throw furniture, dishware, food items across the house. I was completely scared. Did not know what to do I was stuck there. I had no family or anything. I was scared I was going to die or if I did reach out to family he would hurt my family.

I stayed in the relationship out of pure fear and horror. I was forced to go down on women, have a three some with his ex wife, and another time with his ex girlfriend.

He had brought another girl into the house it was terrible. Luckily she got out and escaped and was able to move back to her family. She was a nice person but was 18 yrs old maybe and had no clue what she got herself into.

Afterwards he had me doing swinging where I would have to have sex with other males. It was terrible it wasn’t what I wanted at all.

I tried leaving him 6 months after we were together while we were at a wal mart. The manager was trying to help me leave but I got shocked and too scared to actually leave. When we got home he trapped me in the bedroom and bashed my head several times against the wall. I was 6 months pregnant with my first daughter.

I was stuck and stayed in the relationship for 5 1/2 years. I got lucky HE DIED. YAY MOTHER FUCKER! He had diabetes 2 and his liver and kidneys shut down and he died in the hospital.

If you don’t believe there is a higher power you are stupid.

So if You want to really be in this lifestyle I suggest you highly be safe and do a complete back round check on who you are getting involved with.

I’m not going to tell the whole story because he also verbally abused my daughters and yes I tried sending hints and telling DHS they did nothing.

SO these books you are reading they are pure FANTASY. they have nothing on the real BDSM lifestyle.

I am in a better place now my daughters have and are getting what they need. I am in a better place now and go to therapy and such. I have a new boyfriend we’ve been together for over 3 years now and yes we do BDSM but I get way more say in what goes on and such so pretty much you can say I’m a SUB. because i’m not going through the terrible experience again and i’m not letting anyone take me down anymore.

So LADIES BE CAREFUL.

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